I have been doing a lot of pondering. After being convicted of where God situated me, what His calling was for me and of what was I to do for now, or at least for the next few years ahead of me, I thought I won't be shaken.
But I thought wrong.
Nothing felt scarier than this. Nothing felt like it needed as much courage. Nothing felt as hard. I was stepping out of my comfort zone, out of the boat and straight into the waters, into the waves.
At the same time, I gave up something that was truly important to me. "God, if you knew this was so important to me, then why? Why won't you grant me just this one thing?" I felt foolish immediately after asking Him such a question. I could almost hear Him answering me..
"Daughter, if only you could see things through My eyes, you'll learn to see that I have prepared something so much greater for you. Something so much greater than yourself, so much greater than your desires."
So. Much. Greater. Those words kept ringing in my head. Wow. How privileged I was to have such a big God having a great and divine plan for me. How privileged it was to have Him acknowledge me as His daughter, to have Him revealing what He has in store for me in His time.
Things will come and go. Ages will past. Seasons will change. But one thing remains... and that one thing is You.
Yea, it is still scary. It still seems blur, that journey ahead. But at least now, my steps are strong because I know You guide those steps. For I trust in You, Lord. I will not be shaken. :)
