We just never bothered

It was all there. I recently saw a friend's blog. It was so detailed. When I read it, my tears fell. I never knew she had come such a long way from her past, from her experiences in life. When I met her in person, she would always smile at me. She would always be the first one to encourage me in the sea of people.

Never would I have guessed this positive person had such a dark past. A past which I would have never been able to let go, but she did.

Her stories are all there. But, we just never bothered. We never bothered to read it, to feel it or to understand her.

Today, I got curious about her. I wondered if she had anything in her life now that is disrupting her. Recently, she felt different. Perhaps something was bothering her. Being me, I dug deeper. And there I was, stumbling myself upon her blog.


And as I read every word, I cringe at how much she has been through. Thank God she has Jesus. Else, I wouldn't know anything which could've helped her go through this mess.

But being human, we get weak over and over. Troubles will come and hit over and over. It won't stop. But when we believe in Jesus, it will. When we believe that Jesus got our back, He really does carry us through our burdens. No one can be a bigger testimony than this friend of mine.

I have met a lot of different people in my 22 years of living. I know, I know, that might not be a very big number to speak for experiences, BUT yes, I believe even the littlest experiences count. Most of the people I've met fret over love problems. They fret over one-sided feelings. They fret over not having enough money. They fret over not having enough skills to become a famous TV star.

But this friend, I never saw her fret about romantic feelings. I never saw her fret about her skills and thinking she's not good enough. I began to wonder, "is she normal at all?" 

When I read her blog, I found out that she was indeed normal, just that her problems are not petty, not like the most of ours. Reading about her problems made me feel like I had nothing to worry about at all as far as my life goes. It made me appreciate what I had. It made me thank God I didn't have to go through what she went through.

Honestly, I wouldn't be as strong as her. I would've ended my life far back. But she stood till today. Because Jesus was and still is her pillar of strength. 

It amazes me how God can give such tremendous courage to a girl who almost lost everything in her life. It amazes me how His love is enough for us to receive and to give. It really amazes me how God made her a wonderful living testimony in our eyes.

God is always so good.

Now, as I look at this girl the next time I see her, I will look at her with different eyes. My eyes will be filled with joy and hope because I know that this girl has God working in her. And nothing can be more beautiful than that.

Thank you Father as you love us so much. You are worthy. :)